I am sorry for my bad behavior. I am sorry for my bad temper or the cockiness i radiate.

It have come to my knowledge that many of you "beer players" want me banned.
I know if i speak up i get cocky and bumptious. I have a bad temper, no control of my impulses also i take drugs and drinks allot. This and my bad childhood makes me to a very instable person.

If you don't want to read about my childhood skip this text.

Ever since i was a little boy i always got myself into trouble. I was neglected and battered by my parents. My bigger sister was a psychopathic bitch! It was all her fault if i was the subject of harassment and neglect. She always said that she wish that i was dead. She beat me and when i hit her back she was blaming all on me. My parents got mad at me but my sister were always their little precious angel. I have always been a second choice!

Everyday were like this! I thought that this is how the world is today. Some people are worth more than others. And i was worthless. So i started to fantasize about a world where i did matter!
In my world i was great. I was the biggest and best, better than the rest. But the truth is, that i am lonely.
I have no friends, i have no girlfriend, my parents hate me my cat is the only one that can make me company. Other then that i have no-one!
If someone ask you if you feel good, but you dont. You answer: Yea i am good. You do that because you don't want people to feel sorry for you. I work that way but i take it to the extreme.
Girls i fucked, people i met, money and equipment i have. Nothing of this is true! I just boast about it all.
Like the girl in FB. I made her up. I don't even know her!

Thanks to MR mona i feel much more empathy and compassion to other people.
I just want to say sorry. If you guys have a hard time to sorry me i understand that. I know what i am. I am a preck!