Hey guys, girls,

I'm sorry that i have to tell you that, but about 3 minutes ago i
decided to leave e+ for good. It's not a ragequit it's well thought and
believe me it was a very hard decision. its simple: i'm addicted to
distraction, quake can distract me from whats really going on for hours
for days etc. i discovered concrete parallels between being (more)
depressive and playing quake. My problem is also that i cant just "play
a bit", it always results in way too much, as i said, im still an
addict. And for those who say "fuck that addiction crap, its a game" i
say true, its a game, but i use it as it was a drug.
In September i will start a 9-month world journey (featuring nepal,
thailand, new zealand, usa), so i would have had to quit then at the
latest anyways.
ill add some things:

im not constantly depressive anymore, i was like 1 year ago, but then i
started therapy stopped doing drugs etc. Atm i feel good, i decided to
stop q3 because i feel good without it. It was one of the last
drug-alike things i used to distract myself from the real core of what
its all about (life^^).

Im ok and ill do everything to keep this state and get even better
I think people who suffered of things like that have a really high
chance to learn from it and start a fullfilled life out of it, as i
think it is what depression wants to tell you: "wtf are you doing,
change sth!?"

concerning q3, its too bad but i never learned to find some middle way
of playing it not too much and only for fun. i think although i was
able to get rid of most substance addictions im still in potential
risk, thats why i need to be consistent.
(this is taken from zmb-priv from earlier today, if you think this is too personal and not of your concern, just forget about it. i wrote it for the ones that might care)

To e+,
thank you.
esp. soul (esp esp skull and ina), zmb and the core community around beer.freeze and everyone else who thinks he deserves a thanks from me.
i found a lot of ppl here that i considered being very sympathic persons and/or trolls.
I'll miss you ingame but ill stay around the forums/msn as long as it still makes sense for me

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