Yes, i even know some woman... That was scared of chemo and tried 'alternatives' until from stage 1 , tumor grow to 2. After that he went to Turkey for chemo, and now tumor is gone.

While i was shocked when i was diagnosed. I was thinking... i can die at any moment , without to know about that, from some incident...
But knowing, that i may die soon, broke my desire to do very simple tasks, like work..I catch myself that i can't think. Everything loose meaning...

I read stories of other people suffering from cancer, and some of them scared me allot.
I even go to church. Wrote letter to dead monk, that reads them in heaven and fulfills wishes, because i've read article that some woman cured that way.

Well , i will try to continue my post with some observations i have noticed, it may be useful to some one, like EQ says ( i love you fuckers).
So after chemo, i started to degrade phisically.
I thought it could be because of chemo.
I complained to doctors, because i've read that i cant absorb all substances from food.
But they just mute.
Great mistake was that i trusted my personal doctor , when he said to me it is impossible to check level of vitamines, and minerals.
And i started to read.
And some known pharmacist told me that i can check my vitamines, and to check D and B12.
I did it and both are in deficite.
I started to read and it turned out that especially B12 is very basic, for humans.
For example cells that fight cancer and immune system cells depends on it, regeneration of blood cells depends on it...and many more things...
I read that without it , the nervous system is damages , and that was what i felt.
I realised that they don't know about that because they send me to another scanner for mets in bones , but there were no problems. They just wanted to eleminate this possibility.
I suggest you to read allot about B12.
It turns that we are very biology and chemistry beings, and we have to comply with it.
And for cancer i think it is because body cant fight biologically indestructable materials we absorb.
Also i started to understand how some illness are because of bad absorbtion of minerals.
My known pharmacist told me story of her client, that have sick child, with problems in hands, some weekness, and trembling and they found one doctor, that at the end found bad absorbtion of elements from small intestine, and they started special diet.
I have read that the stomach and gut is called 'the second brain' , and obviously it is not random, because this is the place where our bodies absorb needed substances.
And for alcohol i've read some things that my observations prove.
Like rising blood sugar because alcohol stops pancreas to produce insulin .
And also alc destroy small intestine, and you will not be capable to absorb some substances...

10x, very kind of you, i saw more sad, on the queue for chemo, on some people removed parts of face...horror.
And this feeling of scare, when you go to regular check on scanner, to not call you.. to not find anything...

How are you , how are your beautiful daughters